These last six months have been 𝗧𝗢𝗨𝗚𝗛.
Lockdown was hard. We had to adjust to changes in how we live and work, and the social isolation that came with it.
We somehow managed to claw back some piece of normality, and just as we were adjusting to that, many of us were faced with further restrictions, regional lockdowns, and a removal of some of the freedoms we had begun to savour once again.
I, personally, have found the last few months hard. Living alone with no family nearby means that the majority of my social interactions come from the office – so working from home all day alone, while spending most of my day on video calls, can feel very isolated.
While I am still so lucky to be able to see my boyfriend, my horses, and some friends at the stables – more than many currently do – it’s never quite the same as if life were ‘normal’, and we could spend quality time and do the things we enjoy together.
The quality of my sleep, which has a direct impact on my mental health, has really suffered these last few months, and I’ve seen my mental health that I’ve worked so hard to mind carefully, deteriorate. It’s not something I was entirely aware of until I actually took a break away from the four walls of my house, broke my routine and got some headspace.
The good news is I know what works to improve my mental health – so I just need to prioritise taking better care of myself, and put my mental health first for a period of time, then I’ll be back on track.
𝙊𝙣𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙛𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙖𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮 𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙩𝙝 𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙪𝙚𝙨 𝙖𝙩 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙥𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙨 – but when you are struggling, it can feel like you are the only one.
Today I opened up to a friend about how I was feeling (despite feeling scared to do it) and I feel like an immense weight has been lifted. All they did was listen, and tell me that it was ok to feel this way, and that I could get through this. And it was all I needed.
If you are struggling, know that you are not alone, even if it feels like it. Tell someone, anyone how you are feeling. The scary part of reaching out is worth it, I promise